Saturday, March 13, 2010

Allow me to introduce myself

I am single. I am almost 27 years old, and have zero prospects as right now for a potential boyfriend. All but *maybe* 2 of my friends have a boyfriend/fiance/husband. And it seems all their friends are also in the same boat- making me the perpetual 3rd/5th wheel. Yes. This probably sounds pathetic/sad/desperate, but I have the feeling I am not the only woman in this world who feels this way. I cannot be the ONLY single girl sitting at home, alone, on a Saturday night with no one to go out with because all her friends are out of town with their husbands, on special dates with their boyfriend/fiance, or working. But, it sure as hell feels like it! I want to be kind of a voice for all the single ladies out there. I want to be able to figure out where/how to meet men. I'm tired of friends saying, "You're such an amazing girl! I don't see why you're still single!" Trust me- it's not for lack of trying. I don't enjoy being at home on a Saturday night. I love my parents and all, but I also don't want to spend every night I have off with them either.
As I stated before, I am almost 27. I have 1 cat and 1 dog. I just bought my first house (all one my own mind you). I have a job that I don't love, but it pays all the bills and allows me to live a comfortable lifestyle. I love to travel. I would love to find a job that allowed me to travel- even if it's just to a different city! There's just something about flying in a plane... high above the world like bird. I love it. My sister is getting married in a few months (just another one to add to the pile!), so I've been working out trying to lose weight so I look good for all the pictures and what not. I know there will be no men to meet at this wedding seeing as it's a destination wedding, so not a lot of people can afford to fly to where the wedding is.
I just want to better myself; try to love myself. People always say you can't expect someone else to love you if you can't love yourself. I love myself a little more every day, it's just hard.
It's also hard sitting home alone every night not having anyone to talk to. It's hard when you try to make plans with friends, but they already have things going on/husband/wife says no/no one answers for fear of having to tag along the single one.
I realize I'm jumping from topic to topic. I've just been wanting to write for so long, and I'm only now starting to (obviously since this is my first entry). There's just a lot in my head right now that's all trying to come out at the same time. Maybe this should be a good place to leave my first entry. My puppy is licking my computer screen- I should probably let him outside to avoid having to clean a mess.
I don't know if anyone will read this... but it feels good to start getting all this crap out of my head. Good night all. Sweet dreams.